Second post of today which has been unheard of in a long time but I didn't want to put the two in one post. Sorry for the lack of posting, I had a deadline last Thursday and have another one this Friday and still have a ton of things to do (wish me luck!!). I have actually been feeling very down recently as my previous project I couldn't get into and I kept faffing around hoping that my inspiration would come and now it's too late it's all due on Friday. Hmph. I was really hoping to finish uni with a good grade and now I feel like I have let myself down. I still have my final collection to come so I'm going to make every second count, and this time I mean that! I have learnt my lesson and suffered so much. However it still doesn't change the fact that I won't finish with the grade I want to. *Sigh* I guess all I can do is my best and keep my fingers crossed, right?
In other news I will be starting my work experience on from the 21st for five days at I Heart Studio's in London. I am really looking forward to it but also terribly nervous. I am, and always have been, a really shy person when you first meet me and I always feel a little awkward. I'm sure after an hour or so I'll be fine but it is quite daunting. I'm also scared of being late! I will be living in Farnham with my boyfriend for the week and travelling up by train every day but because I haven't done a trial run (stupidly) and I have to be there at 9:15am, I am quite worried about rush hour etc. Gosh, I'm worried and stressing about everything at the moment!
To tell you guys the truth, I'm kind of looking foward to finishing uni and actually being fully happy and myself again. Sometimes I feel like I have lost my way and I am always stressed, tired or worried about something. Having this constant feeling for the three years that I have nearly been at uni is finally taking its tole and I just cannot wait for it to all be over. I'm not saying I won't be a little stressed; god knows finding a job will be tough, but I see how happy my friend is since she left uni last year and I just cannot wait to feel that way again, you know?
Sorry for my horribly rambly rant today, not a great post for a Sunday evening, but hey these posts are about my previous week and how I have been feeling and this is exactly it. I hope you have all had a better week than I have, and I hope this hasn't put off any of you guys thinking about going to university either! It is such an amazing time in your life and you learn so, so much. I don't regret going to uni at all, just to make that clear :) I'm just having a good old rant!